Day 1 - July 13

Sleep: 10pm - 730am 9.5 hours

7:45am GABA and probiotic. 32 oz water

8:45am 40 oz yerba mate tea with homemade chai spices (ginger, allspice, cinnamon, cayenne), 1 Tbs organic coldpressed coconut oil and 1 Tbs Kerrygold butter

10:15am 32 oz water with 2 Tbs organic lemon juice and 1 Tbs 100% pure, no sugar added cranberry concentrate

10:15-11:15am Worked out

Warm up: 400m. farmers carry 18x2, 400m racked carry 18x2

Superset 1: Front Squats and Seated Band Rows

warm up 3x5/10 @ 35/med band
work sets 5 x 5/10 @ 35/med + sm; 45/heavy; 55/heavy + sm; 65/heavy + medium; 75/2 heavy bands

Superset 2: Barbell Hip Thrusts and Incline Flyes

warm up 3x5/10 @ 35/8's
work sets 5x10/10 @ 45/10; 55/12; 65/15; 75/18; 85/20

Cool Down: walk around the block

11:25am 2 eggs, 1 cup zucchini, 6 cloves roasted garlic cooked in quick spray of olive oil cooking spray; 10 cherry tomatoes
Supplements: biotin and black cohash

11:45am 32 oz water

12:00pm 8oz black coffee mixed with 24 oz water

1 - 1:30pm 15 minute mobility work + 15 minutes stretching

3:00 STARVING! I knew I'd be! I don't put in fat in my post-workout meal, so it only keeps me full a couple hours. But I can't eat while I'm working, so this is the soonest I could eat again. 4 oz salmon, 1 cup homemade sweet potato salad (sweet potato, chard, pecans, olive oil, lemon juice, s&p, cumin)

3:30pm 30 oz water, GABA

5:15 1/2 cup blueberries and 12 hazelnuts, 40 oz water

5:30-6pm Spin
6:30-7:30pm Spin

7:45 30 minute walk, 40 oz water

9:00 2 cups chili (steak, onions, celery, tomatoes, pumpkin, spices)
1 big ass salad (red leaf lettuce, romaine, cilantro, snap peas, carrots, red cabbage, celery) with homemade dressing (1 Tbs grapeseed oil, dijon, vinegar, s&p, garlic)

9:30 16 oz kombucha (homemade, so minimal sugar. I add no extra other than what is needed for the fermentation process)
Supplements: Magnesium, Potassium Gluconate, Glutamine, Vitamin D, Milk Thistle

OH! Weighed and measured this morning. (178 pounds. Neck 12.75, Shoulders 41, Chest 38.5, Mid 34, Waist 32.5, Abs 36.5, hips 44, Thight 25.5). Paid Heather and had Quinn do my BF% (31.2) at 4pm today. (making note of that because Quinn suggested I try to replicate the conditions of the original testing in regards to hydration level for the most accurate re-test in 30 days.)

As for journaling about how I feel with my food choices...I've been eating like this for almost a decade, so I know I feel better. There's not a lot for me to learn in that regard. To be totally honest, this is huge for me in another regard. I am a recovering bulemic. I lost all my weight in a healthy way, but then became bulemic (I am a recovered addict, so I tend to pick fucked up ways to manifest my issues). So anyway...my biggest trigger for my bulemia was actually orthoanorexia...or simply, I was way to strict about my diet. I micromanaged it down to the micronutrient level. And all it took was me having an apple that I wasn't supposed to have and I'd failed...worthless stupid complete and utterly hopeless failure...so I'd go on 4-5 day food rampages eating my body weight in crap and purging. So when I started recovery in October, I had to learn to NOT be so strict with my diet. Which terrified me...in my head all it took was overeating one time and I'd wake up weighing 200 pounds more again. Not realistic or feasible, but terrifying none the less. So today was the first time since mid October 2014 that I've weighed myself. I've gained 20 pounds. And I'm ok with that. I abused my body with food for decades...compulsively eating until I weighed almost 400 pounds, then becoming bulemic for 8 years after I lost the weight. I had to eat how I have been for the last 9 months to teach myself that I could. To teach myself that I was still a good person, even if I choose to eat some cheese one day or a piece of bread another. But I've come a long way and am in totally different headspace now. I no longer feel like my self worth is tied to my weight in any manner. I've learned to love myself unconditionally...finally and thank god! :) And I'm ready to try and get some of this extra 20 pounds off. So...probably more than you need to know about me, but I figured it was necessary information if you're going to be reading about my feelings toward food right now. For me, the being strict and journaling and everything is treading into uncertain territory. Wish me luck. lol!