Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Day 24 - August 5th

Sleep 1030-630 (8 hours)

700 coffee with splash of almond milk

800 coffee with splash of almond milk

1000 2 eggs, 4 sausage links, hash browns, sourdough toast (breakfast at Yellow Basket with my son after registration)

32 oz water

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Day 23 - August 4th

Sleep 1030-630 (8 hours)

7 coffee with splash of almond milk

8 coffee with splash of almond milk

32 oz water with lemon juice

1030 2 scrambled eggs, 12 oz green juice (chard, cucumber, 1/4 green apple, tumeric, aloe juice, kombucha, mint, flax and hemp seeds for fat)

32 oz water

1130 - 1230  60 minute workout

300 2 cups chicken chili verde with lots of veggies, on top of 1/2 cup yellow squash noodles, and 1/2 small avocado.  1 serving 72% dark chocolate.

330 coffee with splash of almond milk

32 oz water

830pm  4 oz meatloaf, big salad (lettuce, cilantro, cucumber, celery, mushrooms, green pepper), with dressing (1 tbs olive oil, balsamic).  4 oz red wine.



Monday, August 3, 2015

Day 22 - August 3rd

Sleep  1030 - 130, 5-830am  (6.5 hours total)

So I had a really rough weekend.  Hard to get through.  Bunch of realizations and come to Jesus stuff.
Needed to be faced and apparently the universe deemed this weekend the weekend to do it.  I will go back and recreate Saturday evening and yesterday today after work.

900 cup black coffee

1045am  1 cup Califia Almond Milk (ingredients:  almonds, water!  40 cal for 1 cup, 3.5 grams fat, 1 g sugar.  expensive as shit, but I was craving milk that I hadn't made!).    2 eggs, 1 yellow squash, 2 large leaves of chard (stems included) sauteed in a little spritz of olive oil cooking spray.  Served with fresh chives on top and 1/2 a small avocado.

32oz water

32 oz water

330pm  4 oz chicken breast, 1 cup yellow pear tomatoes, 1 green apple with almond butter and cinnamon

32oz water

6-730pm  2 hours Spin

32 oz water

800pm  2 chicken sausages, salad (cabbage, radishes, carrots, celery), dressing (olive oil, balsamic, dijon), 1 serving 72% dark chocolate.

Decaf Nettle tea

Saturday, August 1, 2015

Day 20 - August 1st

Sleep 11pm - 8am (9 hours)

830 black coffee

930 black coffee

1030 3 eggs, 3 pieces toast, lettuce, organic mayo (I haven't had an egg sandwich in years.  It was phenomenal.  don't regret it at all.)

Day 19 - July 31st

Sleep  11-7 (8 hours)

730  black coffee

830 black coffee

9 3 hard boiled eggs, 6 oz blueberries and 12 almonds

32 oz water

130  4 oz chicken breast, red pepper slices and yellow  and purple carrots

32 oz water

1 hour hike

400 green apple and 12 almonds

700  shrimp, bacon, avocado salad at Rubios with a small handful of corn chips and tons of salsa and pickled jalapenos.  4 oz red wine. glass water

32 oz water

930 popcorn and glass of red wine.

I have an unholy love of popcorn.  The only thing better than popcorn is sex.  Hopefully at some point I will have sex every night instead of popcorn.  :)

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Day 18 - July 30th

Sleep 11-7 (8 hours)

745 cup black coffee

930  2 hard boiled eggs, 24 oz veggie smoothie (same as Tuesday)

32 oz water

1000-1100  45 minute workout, 15 minute mobility and stretching

32 oz water

230  4 oz chicken, 1/2 cup brown rice, 2 cups aspargus/mushrooms/corn

315-345  nap

32 oz water

630  4 oz chicken sausage, 2 cups of diced cabbage, celery, radishes, carrots

830 popcorn and a glass of red wine

What I've learned so far from doing this challenge is that I can not try to be perfect anymore. I haven't changed my eating for this much at all...I tried to be super perfect with the alcohol and popcorn at first and I started obsessing over it.  It puts my head into places it shouldn't go.  I am happy eating well most of the time, and indulging in a few things I really enjoy.      I've also learned that I do, in fact, eat well most of the time.  And even though I have a diet that is considered really good by most people, and try to work out 4-5 hours a week, and sleep well...I still have extra weight.  And I need to keep focusing on the habits themselves, and doing what is good for me, even if the scale never seems to move anymore.  It's the least I can do for my body after all the shit I've put it through.  One day it might be fully recovered and at a place where it trusts me enough to let go of the extra weight.  or it might not.  I'm wrapping my head around that and learning to be comfortable with it.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Day 17 - July 29th

Sleep  11-7 (8 hours)

730  cup black coffee

830 cup black coffee

1000 2 eggs, 1 zucchini, 1/4 cup salsa, 1 tbs olive oil

32 oz water

1130-1230  45 minute workout, 15 minute mobility and stretch

32 oz water

115 green apple and 1 oz hazelnuts

32 oz water

700 4 oz chicken breast, 1/2 cup brown rice, green beans, asparagus, mushrooms, onions, a little bit of corn (mixed in with the asparagus)

800 1 oz vodka in one glass kombucha, my kids melted dark chocolate in the double broiler and covered saltines in it.  Damn it, I tried it.  And it was really good!

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Day 16 - July 28th

Sleep 10pm -6am (8 hours)

630  black coffee

830 am 32 oz water, probiotic, allergy medicine

930 32 oz water

1015 am  2 hard boiled eggs, 24 oz veggie smoothie (chard, celery, cucumber, 1/2 cup watermelon, lemon, ginger, tumeric, aloe vera juice)

1130 - 1pm  15 minute mobility, 45 minute workout, 15 minute stretching

32 oz water

200  1 chicken italian sausage, 1/4 cup brown rice, 1 cup asparagus and corn 'succatosh'

215-300 nap

330  green apple with almond butter and cinnamon

32 oz water

800 4 oz chicken sausage with 3 cups of veggies (cabbage, carrots, celery, onions)

845pm popcorn and a shot of vodka in kombucha


Monday, July 27, 2015

Day 15 - July 27th

Sleep 10-630am  (8.5 hours)

7  Cup black coffee

845am  about 1/4 cup cherry tomatoes picked while watering the garden

32 oz water

945am 2 eggs, 1 yellow squash, half an avocado, and 1/4 cup of salsa

32 oz water

200pm  2 cups homemade chicken verde (tons of veggies!) with 1/2 cup organic brown rice

230pm  cup black coffee

230-300 Nap :)

32 oz water with lemon juice and 1 tsp cranberry concentrate (no sugar)

500pm 1/2 cup blueberries and 12 hazelnuts

530-6 Spin

32 oz water

630-730 Spin

32 oz water

800pm  about 2 oz chicken sausage with 2 cups of veggies (red and green cabbage, celery, carrots, onions)

900pm 2 hard boiled eggs, 1 oz hazelnuts, 3 figs

I've been ravenous since finishing Spin and I didn't have a full dinner to eat, so it got all split up and I totally didn't need two hard boiled eggs, just one would have been good.  But it was that or chocolate or bread or wine.  I could have stayed down there eating, but took myself upstairs and took a shower instead.  I should have had my 8pm food at 5pm.  That would have gotten me through those last 4 hours better!

Day 14 - July 26th

Sleep 11-830 (9.5 hours)

845 coffee with spices and coconut oil

32 oz water

1000 3 eggs, 3 pieces of bacon, another cup of coffee (my kids made breakfast for me.  There were no vegetables in sight.)

32 oz water

Did my prep cooking for the week between 1 and 4pm and ate 'lunch' while cleaning out the fridge over the course of a couple hours:  a serving of broccoli, a 1 oz chicken strip, about 1/2 cup of green cabbage and chicken sausage, about 1/4 cup of asparagus, a couple cups of plain popcorn.

32 oz water

700  1/2 a small gluten free thin-crust pizza with peppers and onions and mushrooms.

800 1 piece french bread with 1 hard boiled egg and a slice of sharp cheddar.  1 glass red wine.


Saturday, July 25, 2015

Day 13 - July 25th

Sleep 930pm - 630am (9 hours)

7 coffee with spices and 1 tbs coconut oil

32 oz water

1030 black coffee

1200 Big salad with tomatoes, carrots, cucumbers, bacon, chicken, and avocado

32 oz water

600 Ahi Tuna with roasted broccoli and fresh picked tomatoes.

800  popcorn and a glass of red wine.  :)

Friday, July 24, 2015

Day 12 - July 24th

Sleep  11-730 (8.5 hours)

730 12 oz water with gaba, probiotic, allergy pill

800 big cup coffee with spices and 1/2 serving canned coconut milk

815  Figs!  Watering the garden and discovered the figs are ripe!  ate 3 right off the tree, because...FIGS!!!  :)

900 more coffee, just like the first cup

1000 3 eggs cooked in 1 tbs evoo

12-130 wonderful 90 minute massage

200  Big ass salad (tons of greens and cilantro, red cabbage, celery, carrots) with 4 oz chicken and 1 tbs evoo and vinegar

700 Pork loin and corn on the cob

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Day 11 - July 23

Sleep  930pm - 530am (8 hours)

600  16 oz coffee with spices and 1/2 serving of coconut milk (in a can, not the crap in a box!)

32 oz water with gaba, probiotic, allergy pill

730  and another cup, just like the first

32 oz water with lemon and cranberry

930 3 eggs scrambled in evoo, 2 stalks celery

145  1/2 bowl pho...no meat left, but shredded a whole yellow squash into 'noodles', about 1/2 tbs evoo.  1/2 cup watermelon, 6 hazelnuts

200-300 big, wonderful nap!

500 4 oz turkey meatloaf and two cups of chopped celery and red cabbage

530-630  45 minute workout and 15 minute mobility/stretching

32 oz water

900 4 oz turkey meatloaf, kombucha

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Day 10 - July 22nd

Sleep 930 - 700  (9.5 hours sleep)

730am  16 oz coffee with spices and 1/2 serving of coconut milk (1/2 a fat serving)

900 am 16 oz coffee with spices and the other 1/2 serving of fat

32 oz water

1100 3oz turkey meatloaf, 2 stalks celery, 12 hazelnuts

32 oz water with lemon juice and 1 tbs cranberry concentrate (no sugar)

1130-115  20 minutes mobility, 75 minute workout, 10 minutes stretching

130 2 cups homemade chili (meat, tons of veggies) plus a serving of collagen hydrolystate. Going for swole.  bwahahahahahah! (sorry.  I'm truly a big old dork!)

200-300 nap

730  1/2 Thai papaya salad (lots of papaya and veggies in lime juice), 1/2 bowl of pho




Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Day 9 - July 21st

Sleep  10:30 - 7 (8.5 hours)

7:05 GABA, 8 oz water

7:00 32 oz yerba mate tea with spices and 1 tsp coconut oil

8:30  24 oz water with lemon juice and 1 tsp pure cranberry concentrate (no sugar)

11:00  4 oz turkey meatloaf,  24 oz green blender goodness (chard, cucumber, 1 cup watermelon, celery, lemon, ginger, turmeric, aloe juice, kombucha, hemp, chia, flax seeds.

32 oz water

11:30- 12:45  45 minute workout, 15 minute mobility, 15 minute stretching

3:00  6 oz shrimp, 1/2 cup cherry tomatoes, 1/2 cup chow chow (green cabbage, red peppers, and onions pickled in vinegar)

A note about my dinner:  I am soooooooooo not perfect.  But I AM honest.  :)

7:00 3 scrambled eggs in EVOO, popcorn, dark chocolate, and one ounce of vodka in a glass of kombucha.  Personal and private celebration dinner.  I was delicious and awesome and just what I wanted and I enjoyed each and every bite.  

And now back to our regularly scheduled programming...

Monday, July 20, 2015

Day 8 - July 20

Sleep  10:30 - 7:00  (8.5 hours)

7:15  2 16 oz mugs yerba mate tea with spices and 1 tbs coconut oil

32 oz water

9:30 - 10:30   15 minutes mobility, 45 minute workout

10:45   'hash'...  2 eggs, cooked with 5 pieces of chard (stalks and leaves) and 1/2 cup of chicken chili verde.  mmmmmmmmmmmm!  :)     another big mug of tea.

11:45 1 ounce hazelnuts (didn't want to eat my fat post-wod) and a green apple

32 oz water

3:30 2 cups homemade paleo chili with lots of veggies

32 oz water

530-6 Spin
630-730 Spin

745-800 walk

900 4 oz meatloaf and a nice big salad (same veggies as last night)


Day 7 - July 19

Sleep 9:30 pm - 4:30am (7 hours sleep)

Most of the day my food was the exact same as yesterday, because I prepped it all at the same time.

5am  cup coffee

6am 2 hard boiled eggs and 16 oz of green veggie smoothie (celery, chard, cucumber, ginger, green apple, turmeric, lemon, aloe juice, kombucha, hemp and chia seeds)

32 oz water

9am 1 hard boiled egg and the other 16 oz of the green veggie smoothie

32 oz water

1:00  40oz turkey/chicken meatball, 1 cup green beans, cup of coffee

32 oz water

7:00  Homemade turkey meatloaf, huge salad (lettuce, celery, carrots, red cabbage, yellow and green and red peppers, cucumbers, and mushrooms), homemade salad dressing (dijon, vinegar, olive oil)

1 oz tequila with a glass of kombucha.  Already had one drink this week, so absolutely no point in not having my second!  lol!  Tasted wonderful!  I toasted myself for passing the ride academy.  :)

Day 6 - July 18

Sleep 10:30 - 5am  (6.5 hours)  had no control over this.  Ate and went straight to bed as soon as I got home from class last night.  Have to leave for the track at 5:45 this morning, so slept in as much as I could and still get my food done and the animals taken care of.

5am  cup coffee

6am 2 hard boiled eggs and 16 oz of green veggie smoothie (celery, chard, cucumber, ginger, green apple, turmeric, lemon, aloe juice, kombucha, hemp and chia seeds)

32 oz water

9am 1 hard boiled egg and the other 16 oz of the green veggie smoothie

32 oz water

1:00  40oz turkey/chicken meatball, 1 cup green beans, cup of coffee

32 oz water

4:00  12 hazelnuts

6:00  4 oz salmon, 1 cup cauliflower with olive oil

Friday, July 17, 2015

Day 5 - July 17th

Sleep 11:30 - 7:30am   (8 hours)

9:00 3 eggs in olive oil, red bell pepper, couple slices of apple, 6 hazelnuts plus cup of coffee.

my next three days are weird, schedule wise, so I need to eat on a more normal schedule.  Will be in classes this afternoon/evening and all day tomorrow and sunday and my eating has to conform to class times and breaks.  All food for the next three days prepped and packed already.

32 oz water

9:15 - 10:05  workout

10:30  32 oz water, GABA, probiotic

11:30 32 oz water, bowl of homemade beanless chili with tons of veggies, green beans

4:30pm realized I had to leave and hadn't heated up my dinner.  Grabbed an apple and some hazelnuts and another 32 oz bottle of water.

10:00pm Finally home.  2 cups of homemade  chicken verde with tons of peppers and other veggies.  1/2 avocado.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Day 4 - July 16th

Sleep 11 - 7 (8 hours)

7:30 32 oz water, GABA and probiotic

8:00  40 oz yerba mate tea with spices and 1 tbs each coconut oil and butter

11:00 2 hard boiled eggs, 24 oz green veggie smoothie (cucumber, celery, chard, 1/2 green apple, lemon juice, turmeric and ginger root, kombucha, aloe juice, hemp seed and chia seeds)

32 oz water

2:00 2 cups homemade chili (meat, tons of veggies, tomatoes, and spices), plus 2 cups of green beans with olive oil, balsamic, and roasted coriander seeds

32 oz water

6:30pm...Small salad (same ingredients as last four days) with 4 oz chicken and homemade evoo/vinegar dressing

I've been really hungry at night.  Night time was my nemesis.  I'd come home from work and eat dinner and then usually have popcorn and wine.  I tried not to eat right when I got home because it had only been 2 hours since dinner, so was trying to figure out whether I was truly hungry or whether my body is just trained to want to eat at that time.  I drank water and did chores.  When my stomach began loudly growling at me I said 'fuck it' and made something.  At least it's not popcorn and wine.

9:00pm 2 oz chuck steak, 1/2 cup blueberries with 1/4 cup unsweetened coconut and cinnamon

11pm   Up late studying.  4 oz red wine and 1 serving tortilla chips.  Need to get my ass to sleep earlier.  I have no willpower that late!



Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Day 3 - July 15th

Sleep: 11:00-7:30 am 8 1/2 hours

7:45 8 oz water, GABA and probiotic

Brittany...just realized I should probably tell you that I intermittent fast most days. I try to keep my eating window between 11am and 8pm, but depending on my schedule, it's impossible. I just work with it the best I can. I didn't want you to think I skip breakfast or anything. :) and I always put a little fat in the tank to start the day.

8:45 32 oz yerba mate tea with spices and 1 tbs coconut oil

11:00 2 hard boiled eggs, 30 oz red veggie smoothie (same ingredients as yesterday)

40 oz water

11:30 - 1:00 Mobility (15 minutes), Kettlebell workout (60 minutes), stretching (15 minutes)

2:00 4 oz turkey/chicken sausage meatball, 1 cup sweet potato and kale with a little olive oil and a couple pecans
Supplements: biotin, allergy pill, black cohash, milk thistle, ubiquinol

Headache. Problem from no coffee. snuck in a 20 minute nap between clients. didn't really help. oh well.

32 oz water

4:00 1 hard boiled egg, 1 medium size granny smith apple with 2 Tbs almond butter and cinnamon

32 oz water

7:30 4 oz salmon, 1 cup roasted cauliflower, salad (greens and all veggies like yesterdays) plus evoo and vinegar for dressing, 1 glass kombucha

830 1/2 cup blueberries, 1/4 cup unsweetened coconut flakes, cinnamon

I didn't really need the blueberries, but I wanted them. And they were good. This is day three with no alcohol, no chocolate, no popcorn. The blueberries are a win for me! lol~!

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Day 2 - July 14th

Sleep 10:30pm - 6:30pm 8hrs

7:00 GABA, probiotic, and 40 oz water; 80 oz yerba mate tea with 1 Tbs spices and 1 Tbs each coconut oil and butter

9:00 32 oz water with 2 tbs lemon juice and 1 tbs cranberry concentrate (no sugar)

10:30 2 hard boiled eggs and 30 oz red veggie smoothie (1/4 beet, cucumber, celery, chard, lemon, fresh ginger and tumeric root, 1/2 green apple, aloe vera juice, 1 tbs each hemp and chia seeds)

Supplements: biotin, allergy pill, vit E, Black Cohash

11:00 8 oz coffee mixed with 24 oz water

11:15-12:35pm Worked out (50 minutes), mobility (15 minutes), stretching (15 minutes) (is this enough info, Brittany or do you want to know what my work out was?)

1:15pm 1/2 cup blueberries, 1/4 cup unsweetened coconut flakes ... I didn't think about the fact that I'd be working out when I packed my snack. Usually after a workout I go for protein and veg. My bad. I will be starving by the time I get home!

32 oz water

3:00 STARVING! lol! 4 oz cube steak, 2 cups green beans with roasted coriander seeds, 1/2 avocado with balsamic and black pepper

3:30-4:00 Nap :)

5:00 been starving for the last hour. Too little fuel for the activity I've done in the last day. Ate 1 hard boiled egg and 12 hazelnuts. OHHHHHHH my fucking god. SO hungry that I ate half my dinner meatball while I was packing my food to go. then grabbed a handful of the chopped up salad veggies and ate it in my car. 32 oz water.

7:00 Big ass salad and dressing (just like last nights) with the second half of my 4 oz meatball (half lean ground turkey, 1/2 organic chicken italian sausage)

8:30pm Finally home. Gnawed on a 1 oz piece of steak when pouring a big glass of kombucha. I left out the tequila I wanted to add to it. Yay, me. Went upstairs and took a nice hot bath with epsom salts and lavender instead. I still want the shot of tequila. But at least I'm more relaxed about it now.

Supplements: Magnesium, Potassium, Ginger, Turmeric, Glutamine

Monday, July 13, 2015

Day 1 - July 13

Sleep: 10pm - 730am 9.5 hours

7:45am GABA and probiotic. 32 oz water

8:45am 40 oz yerba mate tea with homemade chai spices (ginger, allspice, cinnamon, cayenne), 1 Tbs organic coldpressed coconut oil and 1 Tbs Kerrygold butter

10:15am 32 oz water with 2 Tbs organic lemon juice and 1 Tbs 100% pure, no sugar added cranberry concentrate

10:15-11:15am Worked out

Warm up: 400m. farmers carry 18x2, 400m racked carry 18x2

Superset 1: Front Squats and Seated Band Rows

warm up 3x5/10 @ 35/med band
work sets 5 x 5/10 @ 35/med + sm; 45/heavy; 55/heavy + sm; 65/heavy + medium; 75/2 heavy bands

Superset 2: Barbell Hip Thrusts and Incline Flyes

warm up 3x5/10 @ 35/8's
work sets 5x10/10 @ 45/10; 55/12; 65/15; 75/18; 85/20

Cool Down: walk around the block

11:25am 2 eggs, 1 cup zucchini, 6 cloves roasted garlic cooked in quick spray of olive oil cooking spray; 10 cherry tomatoes
Supplements: biotin and black cohash

11:45am 32 oz water

12:00pm 8oz black coffee mixed with 24 oz water

1 - 1:30pm 15 minute mobility work + 15 minutes stretching

3:00 STARVING! I knew I'd be! I don't put in fat in my post-workout meal, so it only keeps me full a couple hours. But I can't eat while I'm working, so this is the soonest I could eat again. 4 oz salmon, 1 cup homemade sweet potato salad (sweet potato, chard, pecans, olive oil, lemon juice, s&p, cumin)

3:30pm 30 oz water, GABA

5:15 1/2 cup blueberries and 12 hazelnuts, 40 oz water

5:30-6pm Spin
6:30-7:30pm Spin

7:45 30 minute walk, 40 oz water

9:00 2 cups chili (steak, onions, celery, tomatoes, pumpkin, spices)
1 big ass salad (red leaf lettuce, romaine, cilantro, snap peas, carrots, red cabbage, celery) with homemade dressing (1 Tbs grapeseed oil, dijon, vinegar, s&p, garlic)

9:30 16 oz kombucha (homemade, so minimal sugar. I add no extra other than what is needed for the fermentation process)
Supplements: Magnesium, Potassium Gluconate, Glutamine, Vitamin D, Milk Thistle

OH! Weighed and measured this morning. (178 pounds. Neck 12.75, Shoulders 41, Chest 38.5, Mid 34, Waist 32.5, Abs 36.5, hips 44, Thight 25.5). Paid Heather and had Quinn do my BF% (31.2) at 4pm today. (making note of that because Quinn suggested I try to replicate the conditions of the original testing in regards to hydration level for the most accurate re-test in 30 days.)

As for journaling about how I feel with my food choices...I've been eating like this for almost a decade, so I know I feel better. There's not a lot for me to learn in that regard. To be totally honest, this is huge for me in another regard. I am a recovering bulemic. I lost all my weight in a healthy way, but then became bulemic (I am a recovered addict, so I tend to pick fucked up ways to manifest my issues). So anyway...my biggest trigger for my bulemia was actually orthoanorexia...or simply, I was way to strict about my diet. I micromanaged it down to the micronutrient level. And all it took was me having an apple that I wasn't supposed to have and I'd failed...worthless stupid complete and utterly hopeless failure...so I'd go on 4-5 day food rampages eating my body weight in crap and purging. So when I started recovery in October, I had to learn to NOT be so strict with my diet. Which terrified me...in my head all it took was overeating one time and I'd wake up weighing 200 pounds more again. Not realistic or feasible, but terrifying none the less. So today was the first time since mid October 2014 that I've weighed myself. I've gained 20 pounds. And I'm ok with that. I abused my body with food for decades...compulsively eating until I weighed almost 400 pounds, then becoming bulemic for 8 years after I lost the weight. I had to eat how I have been for the last 9 months to teach myself that I could. To teach myself that I was still a good person, even if I choose to eat some cheese one day or a piece of bread another. But I've come a long way and am in totally different headspace now. I no longer feel like my self worth is tied to my weight in any manner. I've learned to love myself unconditionally...finally and thank god! :) And I'm ready to try and get some of this extra 20 pounds off. So...probably more than you need to know about me, but I figured it was necessary information if you're going to be reading about my feelings toward food right now. For me, the being strict and journaling and everything is treading into uncertain territory. Wish me luck. lol!